Hold your body out for stranded passengers.
Live in laundry baskets.
Weave blankets out of past conversations
You’ll need a loom as sturdy as every lie
and thread as slick as every promise.
Cut out your flaws into intricate patterns.
Be a paper snowflake, hang yourself up,
let everyone see through you
Your flaws are much prettier than theirs.
Restock your pantry with convenience store food.
Eat the dark and the quiet, like honey buns.
Lick every drip of its shame and icing from your fingers.
Until you become The Nothing and the Nothing becomes you.
Do price checks on a generator strong enough to power
20 more years of marriage.
He says that’s all you need, 20 more years
then you can leave. A family is concrete.
You’re the one holding the wrecking ball.
Dream about warmth.
Give up being a poet so it can’t be held against you.
Laugh rollercoaster songs.
Change the pillowcases.
Do science experiments.
Sift through seven years of shallow compliments.
Forget that he’s a good man
Forget that good men are hard to find.
Forget that your mom has been married six times
and none of them were worth their weight
in imported beer, so she kept the last one
like a $2 scratch off ticket, terrified to
scratch off the last square.
Buy antique dishes on eBay.
Because you once heard your
Grandmother say that she knew that if she just had
the right set of dishes, she’d have a happy marriage.
Forget that your grandmother is old and alone now.
Read the poems of empowered women.
Stand naked in the mirror.
For the first time, really look at your body.
Covered in tree skin, your roots diving
through red dirt, trying to find warmth
Your trunk hunched,
your limbs have been reached
out for so long they are tingling and numb, coated
with slick and gleaming glass, snapping
under the weight, you can not hold everyone together.
Take the bundle of dreadlocks, remnants of a man
who used to value art more than structure.
Take the pinked lined pregnancy test, a reminder
that you always know more than you think you do.
Take the two most beautiful gifts of forgiveness
you could ever offer each other
Watch your reflection bend and drip to the earth.
Re-introduce yourself to the sun.